Thursday, April 24, 2008 @ 5:42 PM

I wonder?? have you?

after my post on 'How do You know Who's Right for You? ' April 19. i received comments like.. 'is she desparate?' even i have some asked me 'are you really that stressed?' 'oh she is lonely' 'oh..she needs companion' .. hahahahaha...
are these questions in your mind too? to be honest..this wasnt in my mind until you said so. my answer to you is.. 'no!..not desparate.. not stressed.. not lonely.. no depression ' or i must say.. 'AIYO.. THINK TOO MUCH LAR YOU..' haha..
that title really really is one of the devotions i read on that morning. haiyo.. i think i need to snap the page out so tat you believe me lar.. haha.. and the Jagung thingy is just because.. i am indeed a JAGUNG LOVER.. takkan i put.. 'must ivy marry alex, what if ivy likes brian..then charles like ivy.. ' like tat meh? then others will speculate even worse.. paling worse if there are really the 'real' alex, brian and charles... i think people will say i actually take opportunity to express my feelings to them.. pengsan la aku..tolonggg lar.. hahhaha.. really DOINK!!...
i maybe alone.. but i am not lonely.. there are times i need to be alone.. who says married couple wont be lonely.. who says a family of 10 will not be lonely.. is the ATTITUDE..darling.. haha..
in regards of relationship..yea.. i am praying for one.. and waiting for one.. just praying for KARA (being at the right place at the right time) where God will open the doors for relationship. but no longer i wait for the perfect one.. as there will be none. meantime while waiting.. i will continue to serve the Lord and to love the people He has put under my care. i need to rest upon Him. i need to prepare and train myself up to be the prudent wife like in the book of Proverbs... instead of waiting for the right one..be the right one. age matters? i dun think i care much now.. so wat if i only married at 35 or 40..but for sure i wont marry my youthz lar.. for God sake.. haha.. am i not being loved by God.. NO WAY!!.. I AM..GOD LOVES ME SO MUCH... so..my friends.. relax.. God is in control. i will take chance if He says MOVE!! hahaha..and stop asking me whether i'm desparate.. i will be.. in killing you.. wakakkakakakakhahahahhahahaha... DOINK!! DOINK!!