Wednesday, September 2, 2009 @ 4:47 PM
I'm Back!! haha
BEWARE…THIS IS GOING TO BE A SUPER LONG POST. READ WHILE YOU HAVE TIME
I have 101 things to say here today. I kept thinking about wat shall I write first.. and wat is next. It has been the longest time of silence since I started my blog.. yet.. still having faithful readers clicking in to see wat’s going on in my life and left with ‘disappointment’.. just bcoz i did not update.
So.. I’m sorry.. again.. thank you for clicking in. I was pretty surprised coz.. after so long the silence.. my blog is crossing 7,000…. Indeed a WOW.. Thank God.. thank you!!
Rite now, I’m in front of the pc.. and my mind is totally BLANK!!!.. SO DOINK!!
OK.. let’s start with where I left..
Then about Manado, over all for me personally, it was a good trip. I enjoyed it to some extent. Just that it wasn’t as ‘luxury’ holiday as I was expected. Well.. Luxury = expensive. You wan budget? You will get a ‘budget’ treatment.. haha.. Will post the collages in the next blog with some brief explanations.. still doing the collages.. not easy.. have to choose from 450 pcs..haha.. you can always take a good look in my facebook.
After Manado, work life as usual… and so..there was this one Thursday that the office was out of electricity.. so.. I had to work in McDonald.. spent almost my whole 6-7 hours there… thou it was not my first time. But it was my longest time, I worked in McD. The feeling wasn’t really great.. as you will see one by one the McD staffs will have a ‘strange’ look on you. If it was not because I do not have any transport out from there.. and I was waiting for ‘some’ fren of mine.. I would have long gone. It was that day too.. I lost my sister’s phone. Argghhh!!!! Yea.. tat was exactly wat I felt.. you think I’m careless?? I think I am the stupidest human on earth then. Pretty upset and angry with myself. What would you think? Just within 20 days.. I lost 2 phones.. what else I could possibly do?? How ‘unlucky’ I could be?
That Sunday morning.. I sent my parents and sister to the jetty. Left the house.. my good neighbor reversed his car and did not notice I was rite behind him.. I honked of coz.. he was busy talking to his sister.. there goes my car… slightly dented. Aduh!!!
I was pretty ‘soi’ (what a Chinese would say, means ‘unlucky’ or far worse than tat) I was telling God..’what did I do? Wat did I not do? Wat the severe punishment for??’ you know how normal we, human do when things turn bad, we will turn around and blame at ‘everything/ everyone/ everyhow’?? We will just blame here and there..even thou we consciously know that it wasn’t their faults but ours? We also blamed the devil for ‘disturbing’ us by robbing our joy our property. Hahah.. best is when we know there is nothing or no one else to blame.. we turn to God and sort of ‘blaming’ God for the disasters that we faced. And start questioning Him why this and that?
That was exactly how I, a human did. But not for long.. when one day.. I was telling myself and God how ‘soi’ I was.. it was like all things came at once and I told the Lord I couldn’t cope with it. These were burning my pocket. Then I was stunt at once, when God reminded myself tat I was actually cursing myself by saying myself ‘very soi’.!! I was like ‘!!!!!’ quickly I asked the Lord for forgiveness and I repent. No longer say myself ‘soi’ anymore. I know it was a trial. No matter what I should not pronounce curse upon myself anymore… tat was a scary lesson to learn. So learn from me.. hehe
Then middle of August, we have a team from SOMA (mission team) who came and ministered to us for a whole week. It was a busy week for us.. it was also a great week of ‘receiving’. We had Teaching Seminar, Healing Seminar & Revival Meeting.. each night.. the Lord touched the hearts of His people and they were blessed and healed and revived. Thru this team, the Lord enables to show me what does ‘obedience’ mean. Coz this group of 4 (2 aunties from KK, 1 youth from sandakan & 1 uncle Jacque from south African), they came with obedience, willing to be used by God, and there God used them to minister to us. Thru the teachings of Jacque and his great encouragement, personally I received a lot from the Lord. How he encouraged me to move on for the ministry, every single time brings tears to my eyes. It was an affirmation that God is telling me I need to press on and move on. When Jacque was talking to me, it was as if God was talking to me. ‘ivy, remember when you move one step, God will be moving 10 steps closer. So dun be fear.. move on.’ Until today, these words warm my heart and bring tears to my eyes. ‘Lord, Thank You Lord. Sorry to disappoint you Lord. Please forgive me.’
Then, towards end of the month. Something happened that breaks my heart. Was pretty disappointed with some behaviours and lifestyle of our young people these days. Some ‘friend’ stood up and stood against me and wanna make enemy with me. Blaming and accusing me for something I did not do. Started finding faults and threatening me. To me it was purely childish. After all the years we have trained you to be a better person for God and teaching you the ways of the Lord. And that was the reward I’m getting it.. I only can laugh at the storm and cry in my heart. Oh by the way, that ‘friend’ still owe me an apology, even thou found out I was innocent. ‘I’m waiting..’
I dunno why I wanna share this, not that this was my first case handling such behavior case. And of coz not willing to give the devil the glory by trying to spoil my life. I must admit I was pretty disappointed and a bit emo when I handled this. Was pretty angry. And lost my focus. Yet tonight, the Lord showed me that I’ve done it in my own strength. And once again, ‘I’m sorry Lord.’
It is almost end of the year now. My form 3s and 5s are having their major exam real soon. And I’m sure all of them are gearing up to face their ‘Giants (PMR & SPM)’. Some of them are beginning to switch their focus to their giants rather to God. They are fearing their giants rather fearing God. My friends, remember who you are in Christ.. an Overcomer is a person who believe that Jesus is the son of God. 1john 4:5, is also a person who have Jesus in his/her heart, whom is his/her Saviour and Lord. Therefore, if you have Jesus, then you are an Overcomer. And, it should give you no excuse to fear your giant, but only God. (for the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom). I will pray with you and for you. I will pray that in this time of preparation, you will stay close to God. And from Him, wisdom, understand & knowledge. And brings you flying colors, for you to glorify Him and Him alone. Amen. Yea, I will not forget those having their final exams too. (form 1/2/4)
JUST A HEARTY NOTE
To all my dear youths out there.. as long as you are in your TEENs.. you are NOT an adult. Even thou you are fourTEEN, eighTEEN or nineTEEN.. you are still a TEEN. If you are already in your twenties, you are still NOT an adult, if you are still using your parents’ money to buy urself a burger. Not UNTIL you start to earn a penny for yourself, you are only considered as a YOUNG ADULT. So, NOT UNTIL you are a YOUNG ADULT. DUN even think of getting involve in a RELATIONSHIP. Dun even think tat you have the right to do what you like and your parents have nothing to do with your life.. LIVE A LIFE THAT IS ANSWERABLE TO GOD. until you are married, your parents should then let you go.. but some parents dun..but for sure.. GOD WILL NEVER LET YOU GO…so DUN YOU DARE TO LET GO OF HIM..ok?
Well.. tat was quite a story to tell for the past 2 months… and is a bit messy in my writing, please forgive me … too many happenings..yet I’m trusting the Lord for greater things ahead. Willing to hold Him tight and expecting great things from Him. Will try to be more regular.. muakzz…
used to be quiet..but now QUIET NO MORE..
loving people.. specially da Youthzz..
not forgeting Jagung(sweet corn)too..
working for God..
working for the people..specially da Youthzz..
totz of wat I wish for my Blog..
be A place ..
* to give Glory to God;
* to know me MORE
* to learn wat i've gone thru
* for encouragementz & funz
* for precious momentz
* to inspire others
* to express myself, my inner totz
... and you tell me..
"One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek; that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek HIm in His temple."
~ Psalm 27:4
since june 01, 2008
Samantha Low :)