Saturday, October 18, 2008 @ 3:03 PM
‘Ivy, update eh.. I everyday check out your blog de!’ .. wah!! Wat a faithful fan I got.. hehe..
Yupe.. busy busy busy…
You heard me many many times.. assignments, assignments, assignments.. still working hard on it.. I have one more week for my Old Testament assignments.. a long passage to read on, going to write up the synopsis of Abraham, Joseph and Solomon.. the lecturer is pretty good..he makes sure he gave us looong books to read for the synopsis.. aduh.. if I were to finish these 3 bible heros in a week..that basically leave me one more week for my ‘ministering to children ministry’ -10 pages assignments.. and.. ya.. you are right.. I have time to blog and complain no time to do assignments.. !! Pathetic indeed!!
This week is truly truly hectic.. since last week, weekends classes..then Monday till today, dun even need to mention about tomorrow, Sunday!! Another loong day.. there isn’t one night I was resting at home.. home is basically a place to bath, to nap, to change and to sleep..not even to eat.. parents making noise.. ‘going out again? Practice again? Meeting again?’ Yupe.. who says being an adult you won’t face such pressure at home? I even received comments from my dear ones, saying that my health problem mite be caused by not having proper meals, not resting enuf… pressure, pressure, pressure.. these days I’ve been pumping Vit C everyday, just to make sure I won’t get sick. I really not sure how long more my body can take it.. I hear advices over advices, ‘drink more water, eat more fiber, exercise, diet, rest more, eat these..eat tat..’ tell me..you tell me.. how? Geram betul.. try to be in my shoe.. and show me how.. I know ur concern..but.. I dunno how.. sometimes I felt I really need to have a long holiday.. not thinking.. not studying.. not working.. just relaxing.. just doing nothing… honeymooning.. haha.. when will that days come Lord?
Recently I have been thinking… thinking about this work I have.. it has been 3 years I’m working in the church.. and I tell you honestly.. I love it.. I love every bit of it.. just I’ve been thinking..these 3 years.. I’ve totally lost in touch with my frens outside the church.. I’ve not been seeing them.. maybe only once or twice for the past 3 years.. I guess my frens have really forgotten about me, and my heart really aches.. I’ve tried so many times, making dinner plans for their birthdays.. or for some night out.. because of family commitments (most of them are married and with children) and with me working on weekends.. there was not even once we managed to go out for dinner.. haiz… this really makes me think.. aren’t we suppose to reach out? But besides church frens.. I have no more frens.. NOT ONE SINGLE FREN… exaggerating? Maybe? maybe not? One comment my fren gave me, and I still remember it after these years.. ‘we dun wan to look for u anymore.. coz u always bz with church.. and weekends are always out for u’ .. Lord, teach me..
If I dun even have time for my good childhood frens, what more? do you think I have time to go out pak toh? (this is not desperate ya..) all the aunties and uncles were asking, ‘hey, ivy, when is ur turn to get married?’ ‘how come no boyfren?’.. ‘wan to be single izzit?’ I always answer the same thing.. ‘soon lor..soon lor.. you wait ya..i’ll surely tell u when’.. haha.. not living in denial..but just do not know how to answer them.. I know their concern ..not only to me.. but many single ladies here who work in the church.. our age are catching up.. yet.. we are still single.. haha..i think tat is one of the reason also why parents disallowed their children, specially daughters to come into full time.. haha.. dun get me wrong, I’m not discouraging you from serving full time.. as I told u earlier.. I love every single bit of it.. just that the probability of getting married is less gua.. I mite b wrong.. but tat’s wat I’m seeing it. Was it better if I married first then full time? I guess that time my commitment is more.. more responsibilities.. but I still agree that during my singlehood, I can give the Lord the most.. but still need time to paktoh lar.. hahhaha.. If my boyfren is a full time worker, our commitments mite be in diff ministries.. so again..not really got time to pak toh.. at least.. hmm.. during office hour can lar..(mind you.. Labuan office dun have potential.. haha.. takkan you wan me to go to other churches to find? ishh) and if he works outside.. I would say ‘gone case!’.. haha.. coz.. his days off are weekends, weekends are the peak of the week for me.. my day off is Tuesday (provided no meetings at night), he only has max 4hours for me.. then? Both of us mite get frustrated because we have so lil time for one another..in human mind the relationship mite go no way.. (those who were full time and spouse are not.. how u manage it leh? Give me tips..haha!! ) So? If it’s a distant relationship.. lagi pengsan.. hahaha.. We really need the divine intervention…want to find a fren to go on holiday pun susah.. I only can travel weekdays.. who would wan to travel on weekdays? Only Monday to Friday the most…on weekends? Choose wisely.. maybe one weekends a year.. lolz.. tsk tsk tsk..
haha.. of coz I never lose my hope in trusting God to provide my life partner, dun get me wrong.. I still acknowledge that He is the best match-maker ever.. I’m a human.. I think.. I consider.. I’m scared..i complain.. yet I need to trust.. I really dunno how it will turn up if one day I am ‘attached’.. and am looking forward for it.. hehe.. and will blog about it.. when it really happens la.. haha..
enough of my babbling.. after reading this I mite sound like complaining…. Just give me time.. I’m stressed out.. that’s why.. and most important thing.. I LOVE MY JOB.. and I LOVE MY GOD.. and I’m not so happy about my life..!!
p/s maybe u need to start to get on your knees and intercede for me..or..for us.. hehe.. TQ first..
used to be quiet..but now QUIET NO MORE..
loving people.. specially da Youthzz..
not forgeting Jagung(sweet corn)too..
working for God..
working for the people..specially da Youthzz..
totz of wat I wish for my Blog..
be A place ..
* to give Glory to God;
* to know me MORE
* to learn wat i've gone thru
* for encouragementz & funz
* for precious momentz
* to inspire others
* to express myself, my inner totz
... and you tell me..
"One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek; that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek HIm in His temple."
~ Psalm 27:4
since june 01, 2008
Samantha Low :)